Disclaimer: I am technically not sleep-deprived because Ceci sleeps fabulously, but Paul was gone last night and it was my first night alone with both girls. I think all 3 of us knew he was gone, therefore no one slept well... at all.
Any whooo... just a few things on my mind this morning:
** Isn't it funny how when you have your first baby you think that you could never love another human being more than you love her? It is truly the most amazing and steadfast love - different from the love you have for your husband - almost like they are part of your own spirit, part of your being. The moment when you finally see them for the first time is truly a miracle moment! I remember feeling that way with Kam. I couldn't imagine having any more love to give because I LOVED her so much! And then, early on a February morning, God showed me just how much love a Mama can have... when Cecilia was born, my heart burst with happiness and extreme love! And the best part - it was on top of the love that I have for Kamryn! I love them both with all of my heart! I don't know what made me think of that, but I just think it is so incredible!
** As my maternity leave starts to come to an end, I've been thinking a lot about my job. I am truly blessed to have the job that I do. I can remember my mom telling me when I was growing up that teaching is the perfect job for a Mom... and she was right. I get to wake up in the morning and get dressed up, do my hair and make-up (favorite part) and go to a job that I love. The hours are wonderful and I get the summers and holiday breaks off with my kiddos! Don't get me wrong - I don't just leave my job at 3:30PM and come back at 7:30 AM. Teachers have homework themselves - grading (essays are my fav... HA!) However, I feel like I get the best of both worlds - I get to work and feel a sense of accomplishment during the day, yet I still get the time with my girls. I truly don't know how stay-at-home moms do it, everyday, all day. I truly feel that is probably the hardest job out there and a lot of people have no idea!
** Do you think eventually everyone knows when they are done having kids? And at what point does that happen? Paul and I planned on only having 2 kids. Paul is for sure done. He feels it, he is good with it. I think I am as well, but there is always that little thought in the back of my head that I could have another one... do you always have that??
** Sometimes I think I am not thankful enough for all that I have. I am SO incredibly blessed and I feel like I could thank God every second and still not be thankful enough... been feeling this A LOT lately!
Ok, Paul just got home... I better go and love on him!
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