Friday thought of the day

Just a random post (for myself really)...

Cecilia really does not cry unless she is getting her clothes and/or diaper changed - not a fan of being naked... but other than that, she never cries. However, she is a loud baby. Not loud like fussy, not loud like whining, but just loud - she is a loud nurser, pooper, and a loud sleeper. :)

As the Mama, this doesn't really bother me... so let's get to the point. She is still sleeping in our room with us. Let me remind you that we NEVER did this with Kamryn. We were adament that she would always sleep in her room! HA! While she was a baby - she did. Now, I constantly am reminding Paul that for the first 6-8 weeks of Kamryn's life, she slept all day long and was up all night, so technically, she never really slept at night in her bed until almost 3 months! (This is my only ammunition.)

So what is the problem? Paul is really wanting me to start putting Cecilia in her bed at nighttime. And you know what? I know he is right. He isn't getting great sleep because she is a loud baby, and of course, we both wake up with every grunt, etc. For me there is a sense of calm having her in the room and hearing every little thing - because I know she is ok. For Paul, who has to work all day long, it is different.

So why on Earth is this so hard for me to even consider? Hmmm... well, what if I don't hear her on the monitor? I know I will be in and out of bed a million times checking on her. What if she is scared in that new room? She is so used to hearing us nearby, too. (I laugh even writing this because I know that she is not scared, but being a kid who was deathly afraid of sleeping in her room alone at nighttime, I can sympathize with my little girls. I don't want them to be scared like I was... so technically, the problem is mine!) But my biggest fear is that something will happen and I won't know because she is across the hall...

All of these are silly things, and I know that most moms probably feel the same way, but having never had to deal with it with Kam, I guess it is all new to me. And it doesn't help that I am slowly realizing that this is probably our last baby. The moment I put her in the big girl crib, I will never get that newborn time back. That makes me tear up just thinking about it.

The good news is that, as usual, I have Paul who is the level-headed guy who knows what is the best and will help me deal with this impending seperation - sounds like she is going to college, huh? Thank God for him. And I know, Cecilia will always be my baby - even when she does leave for college, so this is only the beginning of the stages of growing up!

Any whoo... this was supposed to be a quick little post, obviously not! :)

Happy Friday.