So I go back to work tomorrow. I am excited to get back into the swing of things, to see my friends at school, to visit with the kids again, to get dressed up with my hair and make-up done everyday, etc. but I am also feeling the guilt of being a working Mom. I grew up with a mama that worked full time, and I never, ever remember feeling like I came second or that there was a lack of time spent with her, but there is always that moment when your maternity leave comes to an end that the fear of what's next comes to the surface.
I texted Paul this morning that I had had a nervous feeling in my tummy since I woke up. And like a fabulous husband would do, he responded with a few wonderful things that I want to remember forever.
- "It will be ok. Kam loves going to Jimmie's and so will Ceci."
- "It will be ok, I promise."
- And then he called me after I had said that I wasn't sad, I was just scared at how fast time was going! Our girls are growing up too fast and I don't like it.
- And he said, "Keri, they have to grow up. If they don't grow up and get older we don't get to go to dance recitals or soccer games, we don't get to visit Disney World unless they get older. There are so many things to look forward to as they grow up, and we can't forget that!"
- Paul, you are such a level-headed guy and I am so lucky that I have you to bring me back down to earth! It was such a simple response and oh so practical, but it was the truth! We can't live our lives always looking back and wishing the for the past. We have to live in the day and be excited for all that God has in store for us. And so I am feeling much better and looking forward to tomorrow, but relishing in today! :)
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